4:15 AM

You can sleep when you're dead.

Find Your Center

"Setting your own pace and sticking to it despite outside pressures to hurry up or slow down can bring you enormous satisfaction this year. Being the master of your own universe, as much as you can, will enrich the quality of your life. Making peace with inner conflicts is worth much more than getting along with others. That's because you're redefining who you are from the inside out. When you respect, trust, and love yourself, success in relationships is bound to follow."

Take Me As I Am

Guard up, guard down. Different pages, all the time. Getting aggrivated with the hidden fuck yous. Maybe that's not what it's supposed to be, but that's what it FEELS like, and I can't change that. Conquer a mountain, slide down a valley. No fail, everytime. What's it gonna take to get it right? I need to delete this stupid thing before it gets me in more trouble than it already has. UGH!!!

Stand Back Up

But if you look me in the eyes, and tell me we'll be alright, and you promise never to leave, you just might make me believe.

Sometimes you've got to lose 'til you win, it's alright, it's alright, it's alright, 'cause it'll be alright again.

Stay true to yourself.

I may stumble, yeah I might fall. I'm only human, but aren't we all?

It's hard to say what it is I see in you, wonder if I'll always be with you.

What do you want from me?

My door is always open. You make the choice whether you walk in or not.

Flash Forward And We're Taking On The World Together

This is where I need to be, want to be, have to be. I'm doing this for me. I don't get why it's so hard for you to see why I am the way I am, but we're us. This isn't anything we don't have the power to work through. All good captains go down with their ships but we're staying afloat. If there were to be disaster, I hope we can both hold onto pieces of the wreckage. We can this. We've just got to stand back up.

Raise Your Glass

I'm happy that you are happy. You have what you deserve and nothing less. Now keep it that way because I love the new you ;)

I'm L, Nice To Meet Cha!

Some days I really miss blogging, today being one of them. This one goes out to Mark Zuckerberg, or the producers of The Social Network anyways, for reminding me that awesome ideas stem from writing-err typing?- out your thoughts. I've been working out every morning at 6:30 AM for almost four weeks now with the Wicked Witch of the West. Who would have thought? Our relationship has done a complete 180 from where it was at this point last year. Not only is she tolerable, but I enjoy and savor spending time with her. Sometimes she's just really easy to talk to. Although it's usually terrifying, I'm almost always guaranteed an honest answer, whether it's what I want to hear or not, but it's good to know that those people are still out there. Anyways, working out has been awesome. It feels good to get in shape, or at least attempt to. The rough mornings start to get me excited for softball season again, but then I think about how absolutely horrible it's going to be this year. I still can't believe the BOE took our coach from us. I mean come on, let the players play, the coaches coach, and the parents spectate, NOT run the show! Ugh, I can not talk about this without getting heated. I just wonder if I'm going to be able to leisurely enjoy something that has been so serious and intense, especially over the last few years. I feel like I'm not going to have anyone encouraging or pushing me like in the past and that scares me. Will the softball drama ever end?
Senior year has been alright. Nice and relaxing and I love that. Since when has school been nice and relaxing for me? I feel like I should be a lot more excited about senior year, but like they say "Once you have it, all you want is more." It just doesn't feel like anything special like I thought it would. But that's alright, because I'm enjoying it anyways. Tennis just ended. I'm happy it's over. It was just starting to become much more of a hassle than anything else.
I interviewed at Adidas today. I'm not sure how I feel about working in retail, but I need the extra cash and the discount at a sporting goods store doesn't hurt! And I get to wear bummy clothes to work! Does that not scream Haleigh Brown? But other than that, I don't think much else is new and exciting. I guess I'll leave it at that!