I think I needed a vacation to remind myself that not everything in the world is out to get me. "Vacation is good for you! You look so tan and happy!" I never thought digging my feet into hot sand and jumping into huge waves could be so damn theraputic. Somehow it was just so easy to forget about the troubles of home like lost friendships (more to come later) and school which is slowly creeping up behind me, UGH! Days filled with Luka and drunken nights slammed with alcohol and drugs couldn't have helped me more in a time like this one. But sure enough as soon as I come home things begin to go haywire again! Two shocking but semi-expected text messages within fifteen minutes of one another. The first, Megan reminding me of our plans for Sara Evans on Tuesday that we've had since May. I don't know if I should suck it up and go with her and see if I have fun or stand my ground and wait for an appology. I just want her to see how much her selfishness is hurting me, but is it worth losing one of the most fun-filled friendships I've ever had? The second, Connor. What else is new. Crawl in, crawl out. I want you, you hate me. You want me, I give in momentarily only to follow with something along the lines of "we're better as friends." Sounds similiar to someone else I know! ;)
I know I haven't written in a long time and there's so much to say and millions of emotions that go hand-in-hand with everything that's happened this summer and I promise myself to go back and write about all of them.. eventually. BUT for the mean time, here's a list of the absolutely insane shit happening in my life from June to August of 2010: I got hired as a lifeguard at the Country Club with Meg. We spent the last two weeks of June and the first two weeks of July being together nonstop bouncing from one house to another somewhat leading to the downfall of our crazy friendship. My Dad had a heart attack on July 1st. He spent 3 weeks in the ICU and I'm so happy he's okay because it scared me shitless. Kristine and I have spent much less time together this summer than we ever have since our friendship began. Partially because we both worked 40 hours and then some every week and because I spent every ounce of my spare time with Meg while she went to Al's races and country concerts all over Western New York. But no fail, we're talking again and I can almost guarantee when school starts, we'll be inseperable again. She really is one of the best friends I've ever had. <3 I got in a car accident July 20th and bounced back and forth between St. Mary's and Children's with severe neck and back pain. I'm feeling a lot better now, but I learned a lot from the accident both physically and emotionally. Taylor and I grew a lot closer because of this I think. Her geniune support amazed me and she listened to me cry about my issues and offered me great advice. Thanks again dudey. ;) I went to see John Mayer, FINALLY! Just as great as I thought he'd be. I also went and toured at Geneseo and the campus is absolutely beautiful. It makes me excited for college, but this whole search is making me so nostalgic. August 18th was a year for Papa. I hated seeing Dad so sad, but I know he understands that Papa is better off now. I think Dad has some unresolved issues with not being able to say goodbye. :( Then there was Long Beach of course. A vacation done the right way. <3
What I have to look forward to this week: Tennis starts tomorrow! I definitely shouldn't be going back to intense physical activity yet because of the accident, but I'm going to try and see how it gos. The new Katy Perry CD comes out Tuesday! (I know I'm a dork, but I LOVE KP) Sara Evans is Tuesday night at Artpark. I absolutely hate Tuesdays in the Park with all my heart, but who can pass up a free Sara Evans concert? Certainly not me! So we'll see how everything goes. Once again my life in up in the air, but at this particular moment in time, I'm kinda happy <3
Blog certainly needed, blog well deserved. Happy to get all that shit on paper! (Well, you know what I mean!)
